Sunday, February 28, 2010 Y
Random once again....
Extensions are a drag... the assignments aren't piling up (spaced out) which made our speed all slow down all of a sudden. Not used to it, even if it's not the first time we're faced with this...First time I doubt myself as a late owl. Usually my mind is the clearest very early in the morning and very late at night.. But the whole BcS screwed up my clock. LOL!Almost 1 year... and the feeling is still strong. It hasn't change. Despite going against the flow. Just hoping it's still strong on either side. Things change, people change even as close as siblings.Boston... I want boston! I want him in boston! But then it's probably awkward for him :( ARGH! Can't have the best of both worlds.....
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10:52 PM
Monday, February 22, 2010 Y
I have a very cute cousin, who says he has a feeling of me dating :pDeep down I really want to say, "yes, but he's not here at the moment", but that'll raise more conflicts.To deny and feel bad just to prevent crossfire, rather than to admit and engage in crossfire.One thing we both agree... We know the truth, that's all it matters. If the little white lie can minus alot of crossfires, we'd rather lie and just live life the way we want to. So regardless how much I would say "yes", I'll still reply, "no".It's painful to lie, but this is what I can do now when nothing is set in stone and almost anything can spark off that crossfire. When things go the way we want to, regardless of the pain and crossfires, I would definately say, "Yes."
Y The Lady @
9:00 PM
Wednesday, February 17, 2010 Y
Despite education, there are some ppl who skipped school and skipped lessons.. Cos' apparently they have missed attending the class called "Manners 101". -.- So what if you're dressed decently? Good appearance, rotton core = ROTTEN ALL OVER!I'm not a racist or a sexist or whatever -ist... But it just so happened that this happened on an Indian guy. I would have the exact same reaction if it's a Chinese or other races. IT'S MANNERS! And this guy obviously doesn't have it.Okay, so it was a crowded bus and I was at the privilege seat. And alot of people came onboard. An elderly woman (prob in late 50s or early 60s) sat down an empty seat. The elderly man behind her didn't have a seat.So, I stood up and tapped on his shoulder, "Uncle, please sit."Whaddaya know? An Indian guy just conveniently slid behind me and plant himself on the chair as soon as I stood up. WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM? That's NOT for you!The elderly man saw it and just smiled... I just stared at that no manners bastard. Thinking back I really should have told him, "Hey, that's not for your butt! It's for this Uncle who's twice your age!" But I didn't...At that point I don't see the need to waste my energy on people like him. But now as I think back, he deserved whatever I was supposed to throw at him. Thankfully, someone else gave up the seat when she saw the exchange... And as she walked past that ill-mannered man, she said it loud and clear (I could hear her over my earpiece) - "No manners." Kudos to that lady~It's a good thing that lady gave up her seat... The entire journey since that exchange was 15-20mins long! I got off BEFORE the elderly man got off... Imagine if he were to stand the entire journey.It's Singapore people... We're Singaporeans! We're asked to uphold such moral values yet there are ppl like that to ruin that kind of image. -.-lll
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1:32 AM
Monday, February 15, 2010 Y
BUSY,A word that speed time up,A word that people hate,Yet a word that is in our life.A word that makes life hard,A word that makes things fun,And a word that's full of life.Sometimes I really hate this word because it makes my life miserable and feel as if 24hours a day is never enough and 5hours of sleep is GOLD, and a perfect excuse for anybody to escape whatever committment they have just to catch a few more hours of rest in their days- Party, gathering, outing etc.Yet sometimes I like this word because it shows how meaningful life can be, rather to spend it doing something than to spend it doing nothing.BUSY... What a complicated word...
Y The Lady @
10:54 PM
Saturday, February 13, 2010 Y
Staying up on the last day of school... And I mean STAYING UP! It's currently 3am and I'm wide awake... With my eyes burning, but I don't feel sleepy...And I must have wrecked my brain for the past 6 weeks, cos I just watched Valentine on HBO, which was a Horror movie.. ALONE. :/ I do need a hug after the show...... At least I didn't watch it with the lights off, THAT would be scary...Totally missing my man, terribly... :( Missing more and more, especially on the upcoming V'Day~ *sob*
Y The Lady @
3:00 AM
Saturday, February 06, 2010 Y
The one time I can truly think is when I'm wet, hah. The entire Saturday without tuition, doing assignments, playing WoW, doing more assignments and spending time with grams, aunt, uncle and cousins... Did I mention no tuition? It was really fulfiling, and I didn't feel as if I've wasted my entire Saturday.Usually Saturday mornings are used for my prep work for tuition, then off to tuition I go, and then either dinner with grams or dinner at home. By the end of the day, I've got absolutely no mood or energy left with study or do assignments. 1 day gone by and wasted... Just like that. Not today though, not today.It made me think about my decision of relinquishing my position as the Chinese tutor every Saturday once May is over before my Boston trip begins. By the time I return, it should be August... The thought of letting go of this job crossed my mind countless number of times, and I guess the students might have something to do with it.It makes a teacher happy and contented knowing that the students walk out from your lessons learning something. But it takes just 1 or even 2 students to make that go away... The uninterested attitude in learning another language, treating class time as play time, sleeping in class... -.-lll It kills my mood to teach, no.. It kills my mood to think about going there, let alone teach! Honestly, I don't blame them... They DO NOT have that Chinese background in them, any of them.. None of them were like half-Chinese or whatsoever... Learning a new language is tough, I should know... And it takes alot of motivation to get through. I know my motivation, and I push myself forward thinking about my motivation. It keeps me sane and keep moving forward. But I have no idea what their motivation is, at all. I have no idea why they even wanted to learn Chinese in the first place? Is this about the way China is expanding itself? And that Chinese will be a good language to know?Personally, I would seriously suggest they give up learning. Rather, do something that they like. I wouldn't force my kids to do something that they hate and end up wasting their time and my money and not learning anything at all... Life is short enough, 24hours a day is just nice for us to balance between work/school and play. Don't waste it on something which you have no interests of. If it's of your interest, no matter how much effort you put in, how much it costs.. Go ahead. But not when it is something you are being forced into learning or doing.I really don't know how the parents actually think... If the kids are like Half-Chinese and one of their parents is a Chinese, and they want the kid to know that language, fine, still acceptable. And then... why can't the parent teach the kid himself/herself? -.-lllMoney doesn't fall from trees, don't they know that? Sigh........ I'm so thankful next week there's no lesson due to CNY... But the week after next, and the week after next, and the week after next, and so many weeks after that..... :( I can't imagine~
Y The Lady @
10:28 PM
Wednesday, February 03, 2010 Y
I can't believe for someone like me who usually sleeps at 1+am would fall asleep and doze off at 11+pm -.-lll It's supposed to be "early" for me... LOLI must be losing my mind, and everything feels like a drag... Not distracted, but no motivation to push on (not even when I'm thinking about my pillar of strength).Final 2 weeks of school... Weird, so very weird. PUSH ON! NO MATTER WHAT!
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10:54 AM
