Thursday, November 12, 2009 Y
Needed a place to clear my thoughts and sort out my thinking. Frankly speaking I don't know what to think, how to think. In such situation, usually I wouldn't think too much. I should really heed my own advice this time.Past memories played in my mind like a silent movie, replaying the good times we share, the things we talked about, laughed about, discussed about, moments we enjoyed company of each other, moments when we shared in silence while we go on with our own things without a single word said. Time was short, time was difficult to synchronized thus we made the most of the moments we have together with each other. That kept us strong, kept us close, made us telepathic, made us treasure each and everything about the other.A beautiful picture was painted in our minds, our hearts, our souls - What we wanted so badly, what we needed so desperately. Maybe the distance could have played a part in contributing to such strong emotions and desires. Yet one thing is for sure - The presence of these emotions and desires. Distance merely amplified them, not create them from nowhere.Some say this cannot be real, it's fake, it's a scam, it's a lie.. It hurts like hell, but the thoughts of letting go hurts more than those.We don't know what the other is doing on the other side of the world, what you know could have been filtered. Some parts rang true, THIS MUCH i know, I'm not dumb. Yet there's this thing call "trust" which should be present in everyone, between each relationships (all kinds of relationships). Being together for so long, with the distance so great, yet doing so well (minus the variables), it was all because of trust and honesty. If we couldn't even trust this much in each other and be honest about it, there's no point in starting this whole "ride" in the first place.Some may argue that there's no deadline in lies, one can fabricate lies from the start and build on it to fool people. But someday it will still be exposed. Otherwise there wouldn't be this saying that "the cat is out of the bag".Complicated thoughts, still sorting them out. However after so much thoughts, one thing never changes, regardless of how tough the situation is, regardless of what variables may be in play, what obstacles are present during the "ride" --> I love this ride too much to just jump off and go on separate ways. The ride is tough, but the journey, the scenery and the company reigns over the bad.
Y The Lady @
6:52 PM
