The Lady ♥

Sunday, July 13, 2008 Y

I really lived this very Mandarin proverb: 日有所思,夜有所梦. I've been so freaking scared about stepping out of my comfort zone that everything I'd ever thought about is my upcoming lesson on Monday, which is tml.

It really was a HUGE step out of my comfort zone, tbh.

For 2 consecutive nights I've been having similar dreams. How similar? Well...I'm in both dreams, both dreams happened in LSH and both dreams are about my upcoming lessons. Weird huh? And a little bit stupid.

Sometimes I reflect back, "Why in the world am I so afraid? It's not assessed!" I find myself really stupid to think too much. Sub-consciously I've been drilled in of a bad scenario or whatsoever that it took control over my life.

I WANT MY LIFE BACK!

Argh! As the time draws nearer and nearer, I'm getting more and more freaked out. I can't dream it again for the 3rd time, that'll be just plain jinxed! Only thing that I'm afraid of for my Field Practicum is tomorrow's Main Activity. After that, I'm back at things I can control.

The only thing that kept my mind off tml's lesson is Tue's swimming with the children after cooking with them.

Very soon, it'll all be in the past.. Very soon... Just wished it would be sooner.

Y The Lady @
9:28 PM